Thursday, October 12, 2006

Re: Passion for Heaven; Are We?

I would like to share a comment from one of my friend. She email me this comment which I find worth reading. Kind of long, but again, its worth it!
erm...i think better i give some opinion about your recent post but in malay..english x power..may be next time coz i feel better with malay now..

congrat to you coz u dare to write this recent post in english...ana rasa selesa dengan artikel nta kerna satu soalan yg dilontarkan pada kita...dan kembali mengingatkan diri kita suma...dimana kita?...btulkah aku dambakan syurgaNya??...musahabah yang indirect but effective if we think it back..good job...pada ana bukan syurga kita dambakan tapi mungkin lebih pada keredhaannnya...nikmat yg diberi ni hanya setitik air lautan pada ALLAH tapi kita rsa sangat selesa dan bahgia dengannya...ana merasakan nta mungkin akan menekankan kembali diakhir artikel tentang keredhaan Allah....means kita ni belum tentu dapat redhanya apatah lagi kita nakkan syurganya...i hope for that sentences but i dun get it...pa pun ni hanya pendapat...pada ana mungkin bila menulis artikel kita kena stresskan realiti sbenar la..i hope u get it..i dun know how i want to xplain it...but i think u can understand me...mengapa kita still melanggar hukum allah walaupun kita tau bila melanggar hukum allah kita jauh dari syurganya...pada ana kerana benda tu kita x nmpak akibatnya di masa hadapan...i means bukan depan mata..x dpt waktu tu gak..macam contoh nta la...kita kerja kuat coz apa??? passion or money..but for me it more to the money..their goal...selesai kerja dapat gaji ...tapi buat good deed x dpt skang..x dapat akhir bulan reward dia...x nmpak...goalnye jauh..x clear...tapi hanya iman,taqwa dan keikhlasan shaja yang menguatkan kita utk buat semua ni...inilah pilihan allah...mereka2x yang ada suma ni insyallah akan merasanya tapi tidak yang hanya logik semata...ni suma pada ana dtg dr ilmu sendiri...ayat pertama turun pun ...iqra kan??bacalah...so nmpak betapa penting ilmu utk capai iman,taqwa n keikhlasan sendiri...ada yang lain juz stated yang ni je k...adanya nya rukun iman pun minta kita percaya means x semestinya hukum allah ni logik je tapi mesti letak trust or believe gak so ini yang x suma org dapat rsa..walaupun tau syurga utk org yg buat baik tapi mereka x nmpak goal tu skang that why diorg still wat...for me...amalan yang kena buat pun diorg x rsa kepentingan...x dapat nmpak goal...cthnya...sembahyang wajib tapi org x wat..napa??coz bukan mcm kerja...buat dpt reward yg nmpak..real...tapi kita perform prayer pahala dapat..x nmpak..disinilah perlunya trust...pada ana kalu allah bg setiap org nmpak pahala dan dosa ...maka x wujudlah neraka...coz suma nak yang terbaik...coz baru rsa passion tu ada utk wat good deed...that juz my opinion...before dis i think i go throught my life without a life of islam..so i juz think that knowledge is so important...maka ana percaya mengapa allah menurunkan wahyu pada muhammad s.a.w ialah surah iqra...i can see it...it make i believe what i choose now...dis one juz nak share ek...coz it juz an opinion...hope u dun mind...sma juga mengapa wujudnya perktaan hikmah dalam diari seorang muslim...kerna disitu kita dapat fikir positive dengan apa yang berlaku jadi kita redha...tapi hanya yang percaya sahaja akn percaya tapi yang tidak ttp akan frust dan rsa that not d bez for them..they deserve to get it...for me k...sory kalu my opinion ni merepek atau apa saja..juz nak bg tau napa still org dambakan syurga tapi x go for it....that all....bezanya passion kita dalam islam adalah pada keimanan .ketqwaan dan keikhlasan itu sendiri kerna bnda ni x nmpak on time tapi satu jangka yg panjang..manusia ni pun maksudnya lalai so may b keinginan nafsu menguasai diri hingga mereka tahu mereka mahukan syurga tapi tetap tidak mengejarnya...last sekali tittle passion ni bez sebenarnya coz sejarah juga mengatakan passion yang mengubah manusia eropah menjadi manusia bertamadun....coz they have passion to know something...kalu x silap tamadun recsonnane...x ingat la ejaan dia...dah lama x stdy history...tapi apa pun congrat dr ana...god job..sory if my opinion ni x btoi @ apa sja..plz correct me...i want to become better person..ana pakai ayat sempoi je n rojak skit..maaf ye ....tq n wasalam...
Thanks a lot for the for the comment. Really appreciate it. Best... I have to agree about the 'redha' part. I don't really know what the term is in English. Huh! Anyway, she has her point there. Share while you can...

Wallahualam...

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Passion for Heaven; Are We?

In some of my recent post, I wrote a lot about passion. And again, I would like to write about passion. I'll make it short and simple. Stright to the point. Its more of a muhasabah; hopefully I won't make any stupid 'miss communication' in this English written post. What is passion anyway? Maybe you guys already forgot. Too old to be true. Just kidding...

I'll try to make this as simple as I can. Take example in our office, at work, we can observ many people working hard. Sometimes too hard; doing overtime; going back late. Well, there is two assumption. It's either there have passion in the work they are doing. Or, they have passion in the salary (money) that they will be paid. Either way, because of passion, these people are working hard. I said 'these' people, not 'we', because I'm not one of them. Hehe...

Now, that is what I define as passion. It drives us, human to do something. To work hard for something. To strive for something. Without passion, what we do will be dull. We will do it half hearted. Like me myself, doing my current work at my current office, its damn too dull and boring. But, when I'm back in front of my computer, wow! Never felt better. This is PASSION.

So, whats the big deal? Well, an idea just struck me after breaking my fast. Logically, everyone must have hope to go to heaven. And I believe, no one wants to be put in hell. Of course, I have met people that believe they will go to hell and never did try to change so that they can have the chance to go to heaven. But the point is, everyone wants to go to heaven? Correct me if I'm wrong. Again, whats the big deal here?

Don't you guys get it? If everyone wants to go to heaven, should be, everyone have passion in it. But, if everyone is passionate enough to go to heaven, why isn't everyone striving for it? Doing good deeds, amar makruf nahi mungkar, controlling themselves from breaking Allah's' law and list goes on. Why?! We do our work in the office good enough; sometimes better than 'good'. But why does when it comes to doing our responsibility to ALLAH, we don't do it at our best?

Its kind of weird, but believe me, we are too weird than we think we are. We want to go to heaven so badly, but still, we never did act like we wanted to. We are deadly scared of hell (neraka jahannam), but still, we tend to do things that are forbidden. Logically thinking, we are crazy!

Got the message I'm trying to deliver? I'm not actually saying "We are crazy,". No! I'm trying to say that, if we really have passion towards heaven, if we really want to go to heaven, than, act like we want to. We can work damn hard to get a rise in salary, or even get a better position. Why not work even harder to get the opportunity to go to heaven?

Think about it. Do we really want to go to heaven? If the answer is a YES, than strive for it. Prove it to the Al-Mighty. Don't just keep saying you want to go to heaven. If you just keep on saying and dreaming, you will be nowhere even near to heaven. And I'm not joking.

I take this opportunity in this month of Ramadhan, to urge myself, and fellow readers to have the passion to go to heaven, and strive for it. With only 11 days to go, I don't think its enough. That's my personal opinion. Maybe for some of you, and that is a very little 'some-of-you' I mean; are already prepared for the here after. I'm not yet...

Just my two cents. (I wonder why it is always 'two cents'. Lol~).

Wallahualam..

P/s - Sorry if my words are a bit too sempoi. I prefer this style of writing. Not to formal. And also no bombastic words. Open for comments!

Sambutan Ramadhan-Aidilfitri Sepi Buat Tahanan ISA

Malam ini, pelbagai ilham datang mendesak untuk dinukilkan ke alam blogger ini. Saya sendiri keliru mana satu ilham yang hendak dicurahkan menjadi penulisan buat perkongsian. Kebetulan, saya terbaca artikel menarik yang menyentuh perasaan. Artikel tulisan Ahmad Lutfy Othman tentang kesengsaraan mangsa ISA menyebabkan hati ini sedikit berombak kesayuan.

Ada SB bertindak lebih nekad untuk memporak-perandakan hubungan suami isteri mangsa ISA dengan menimbulkan pelbagai kecurigaan tidak berasas. Bayangkan pula, dengan wang yang dikumpul berdikit-dikit untuk tambang ke Taiping, mereka hanya diberi kesempatan tidak lebih 45 minit untuk berbicara sambil dipisahkan dinding kaca. Masa 45 minit itu terpaksa diagih-agihkan supaya setiap seorang dapat melepaskan rindu.

Kadang-kadang si ibu terpaksa melepaskan anak-anak sahaja yang pergi.

"Kami anak beranak jarang melawat ayah mereka. Lagipun semuanya memerlukan belanja. Adakalanya saya belikan teket bas pergi balik untuk anak-anak dan mereka pergi sendiri," cerita seorang isteri mangsa tahanan ISA kepada Harakah.

Menjelang akhir Ramadan penuh keberkatan ini, kami di Harakah cuba menyelami kesukaran hidup beberapa keluarga tahanan di sekitar ibu kota. Pertama, untuk menimbulkan kesedaran dan keprihatinan pembaca, selain berusaha mendorong para dermawan menyumbang bakti.

Inilah realiti yang terpaksa kita telan. Walaupun kononnya Pak Lah adalah Mr.Nice Guy, cucu ulama, orang berlatar belakang ISLAM dan sebagainya. Hakikatnya, itu semua RETORIK belaka. Dan Pak Lah hanyalah makhluk tanpa hati dan perasaan. Bertopengkan wajah manusia, namun perangai dan sikap serupa binatang. Malah binatangpun lebih bertimbang rasa.

Maaf andai penulisan malam ini terlebih kasar. Tapi sebak di dada tidak dapat dibendung. Walaupun cuaca di KL malam ini sejuk dan nyaman, tapi artikel saudara Lutfy memanaskan suasana. Tidak pernah terlintas di hati ini, akan ada manusia yang mengaku MUSLIM, tetapi terlalu zalim. Zalim terhadap orang MUSLIM sendiri.

Malah dalam kezaliman itu, Pak Lah sibuk melobi ke sana sini bercakap tentang ISLAM (HADHARI). Mengimamkan solat itu dan ini. Seolah-olah ingin memperlihatkan kepada ramai, "Aku pemimpin berjiwa ISLAM,". Penipu terlaknat sungguh si keparat Pak Lah ini... Apatah lagi akhir-akhir ini jika kita sedar, Utusan Malaysia asyik memetik ucapan tazkirah Pak Lah dan gambar 'alimnya'. Nak termuntah eden...

Dalam kemuliaan bulan Ramadhan, bulan di mana syaitan dan iblis dirantai, bagaimana Pak Lah dan barisan kabinetnya terlepas daripada rantaian? Saya boleh katakan, tindakan Pak Lah sekarang bukan dek hasuran syaitan dan iblis terlaknat, tapi realiti dirinya sendiri. Sungguh menyedihkan. Mendapat pemimpin yang tak layak digelar pemimpin. Berperangai hodoh lagi jijik.

Buat mangsa-mangsa tahanan ISA, tabahkan hati. Yakinlah kemanisan daripada ALLAH menanti. Mungkin bukan di dunia, tapi nun jauh di akhirat. Doa orang yang dizalimi makbul, apatah lagi dalam bulan Ramadhan. Semoga ALLAH mempermudahkan usaha anda. Insya-ALLAH, kami sentiasa bersama anda.

Buat pemimpin terlaknat, insaflah dan mohonlah keampunan kepada ALLAH. Tak lupa kepada mangsa-mangsa ISA, kepada isteri-isteri mangsa, kepada anak-anak mangsa, kepada ibu bapa mangsa. Mungkin di dunia anda boleh tunjuk hebat. Berlagak sombong dengan kuasa di tangan. Tapi saya yakin, di akhirat, kuasa anda takkan mampu berbuat apa-apa. Saya yakin! Yakin dengan janji ALLAH...

Akhirul kalam maaf andai terkasar bahasa. Memang saya rasa, inilah bahasa yang paling layak buat Pak Lah dan barisan menterinya yang senggal. Jika blog ini dimonitor oleh mana-mana pihak, lagi bagus!

Salam Perjuangan, Salam Ramadhan. Wallahualam...

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Nuzul Quran; 1001 Hikmah dan Pengajaran

Hari ini, ataupun lebih tepat, semalam, telah berlalunya Nuzul Quran. Ia bersamaan dengan 17 Ramadhan di mana dikatakan Al-Quran telah diturunkan pada malam tersebut. Bagaimana ia diturunka? Pelbagai pendapat yang menjadi khilaf di kalangan alim ulama. Saya tak berhasrat menulis tentang itu, ataupun pengajaran daripada Al-Quran. Terlalu banyak untuk dinukilkan. Bahkan, jika seluruh internet ini digunakan untuk menulis tentang pengajaran daripada Al-Quran, belum tentu ia mampu menampungnya.

Apa yang ingin saya bawakan di sini ialah tarikh 17 Ramadhan ini menandakan telah berlalu 17 hari kita berpuasa. 17 hari kita telah menunaikan ibadah puasa, menahan diri dari desakan hawa nafsu. 13 hari saja lagi tinggal untuk kita menikmati indahnya hidup tanpa dibayangi nafsu serakah. 13 hari lagi bulan mulia akan meninggalkan kita. Dan 3 hari lagi bermulanya detik pencarian Lailatul Qadar.

Pantas sungguh masa berlalu. Kalau masa boleh diperlahankan, ingin saja saya memperlahankan masa. Biarlah bulan mulia Ramadhan ini tidak berakhir. Biarlah saya mampu mengecapi nikmat bulan barakah ini hingga ke akhir hayat. Bulan di mana amalan umat ISLAM digandakan ALLAH.

Namun, inilah realiti ketentuan ILLAHI. Bulan puasa hanya sekali setahun. hanya 30 hari daripada 365 hari. Siapa antara umat-Nya yang menggunakan peluang 30 hari sebaiknya, maka ganjarannya tersangatlah besar. Malah, ada riwayat mengatakan, antara golongan yang dicela oleh Rasulullah ialah orang yang tidak menggunakan peluang bulan Ramadhan untuk beribadat kepada Al-Khalik. Nah, adakah kita mahu dicela Nabi?

Menjelang 13 hari terakhir Ramadhan kali ini, some points to ponder:
  1. Daripada 17 hari yang telah berlalu, berapa harikah kita menunaikan solat terawih berjemaah? Berapa rakaat? dan solat witir pula bagaimana?
  2. Daripada 17 kali kita bangun bersahur (jika bangun), berapa kalikah kita turut qiamullail?
  3. Setelah 17 hari melewati kita, berapa juzuk Al-Quran telah kita baca? Berapa pula yang telah kita fahami? Orang kata, dalam bulan Ramadhanlah kita mampu khatam Al-Quran (30 juzuk dalam sebulan) kerana tiada gangguan syaitan dan hawa nafsu. Fikirkan!).
  4. Setelah merasai 'nikmat' lapar dan dahaga, berapa banyak kita telah bersedekah kepada fakir miskin dan yang memerlukan? Berapa banyak pula telah kita berjoli membeli makanan untuk berbuka?
  5. 17 hari = 24480 minit. Maka daripada 24480 minit, berapa minitkah yang telah kita infaqkan untuk berselewat dan bertasbih? Berapa minit pula masih kita bazirkan untuk memfitnah, mengumpat dan perkara sia-sia yang lain?
  6. Dan pelbagai lagi yang tak tertulis oleh tangan ini...
Marilah bersama muhasabah diri. Saya sendiri tidak mampu menyempurnakan kesemua yang saya nyatakan di atas. Tak dapat buat semua, tapi janganlah tinggalkan semua. Itulah pesana n As-Syahid Imam Hassan Al-Banna.

Akhirul kalam, saya hairan dan bingung melihatkan begitu ramai orang yang ternanti-nantikan kedatangan Syawal. Memanglah Hari Raya itu menggembirakan, tetapi, tidakkah kita sedih untuk ditinggalkan oleh bulan mulia Ramadhan? Satu-satunya bulan yang amalan kita digandakan,malah diberikan pelbagai 'insentif' tambahan. Juga, bulan di mana letaknya malam lailatul qadar.

Pelik bukan umat akhir zaman ini? Zaman Rasulullah, sahabat-sahabat menangis apabila tibanya penghujung Ramadhan. Mereka takut tidak dapat berjumpa dengan Ramadhan akan datang? Kita? Kita tak sabar nak raya, puasa ntah ke mana. Tepuk dada, tanya iman. Mahu ke mana kita nanti? Syurga atau neraka?

Wallahualam...

P/s - Post tentang kebenaran Al-Quran (sempena Nuzul Quran) --> Bukti Kebenaran AL QURAN

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Terengganus' Monsoon Cup; Whats With the RM250 Million?

This is my 4th post in English. I find it really interesting to write in English. Not saying that I prefer English than Malay, but sometimes, English is simpler in its own way (But Bahasa Melayu is still my number 1 language! Don't get me wrong). I try writing in English so that more people can read about the truth. After all, English is an international languange. (Well, Bahasa Melayu used to be the Lingua France once upon a time ago).

I hope the issue I'm writing this time is not too outdated. I tried to write about this issue earlier, but it just came to me that I don't have enough facts to be presented. And I don't like to write crapt that have no basis. This issue that I'm writing about have a lot of basis. That is if you are willing to open yourself for the truth.

I'm not thinking to explain bla bla bla. But I just want to share some links regarding misuse of the wang ehsan for Terengganu. If some of you are aware, after BN won the election in 2004, they introduce a new competition called monsoon cup, which is a high prestige event. It can be considered an international-waste-money-event though...
On 26 June 2005, they set up an events management company called Premium Project Management Sdn Bhd (company number 692728-M). Then, on 9 September 2005, the name was changed to T-Best Events Sdn Bhd. The company’s paid-up capital is only RM2.00.

The company is supposed to be a Terengganu based company but its registered address is at no. 23A, Jalan SS 21/60, Damansara Utama, Petaling Jaya, Selangor.

The two shareholders of the company who hold one share each of RM1.00 are Saharuddin bin Abdullah and Suhami binti Kiman. The directors of the company are Wan Hisham bin Wan Sallehspan> (Terengganu), Mohamed bin Awang Tera (Terengganu), Chew Kok Foo (Petaling Jaya), Peter William Gilmour (Australia), Chua Hooi Sian (Petaling Jaya) and Lim Poh Tiang (Petaling Jaya).

The name to note here is Wan Hisham bin Wan Salleh, a (EXCO) member of the Terengganu State Government, and the man behind the entire operation. Wan Hisham’s brother, Wan Mohd Farid, is the political secretary to the Minister of Home Affairs, Abdullah Ahmad Badawi,pan> who, coincidentally, is also the Prime Minister of Malaysia. But Wan Hisham is only there to give the company political weight. The man running the company is Patrick Lim.pan> And Patrick Lim’s job is to conjure up events that the state can embark upon -- which, of course, would require a couple of hundred million Ringgit to finance.

One very ingenious project they came up with was to hold a sailboat race from 29 November to 4 December 2005 called the Monsoon Cup. Instead of everyone running for the hills in fear of a Tsunami hitting this country like it did around Christmas of 2004, they would congregate on the beach to watch sailboats race against each other in the monsoon winds.

And the Monsoon Cup was given a budget of RM250 million, more than enough money to go around. Only in Loony Malaysia can a RM2 company, hardly a couple months in operation, get its hands on a RM250 million government job.

The plan was to invite sailboat champions from all over the world to participate in the race. This would give the Monsoon Cup credibility and prestige that would rival the Langkawi powerboat race. But these world champions would need to be given suitable accommodations and the only five-star hotel in Kuala Terengganu was certainly not suitable enough.

So they built 50 new houses on Mermaid Island, known locally as Pulau Duyung. n style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Each house was priced at RM1 million, so RM50 million would be needed to build these houses.
Of course, you and I can build these same houses for around RM250,000 each. But that is not the issue here. The issue is: the foreigners need to be made to believe that they are living in a million dollar house (though it would only be for a few days). Pricing the houses at four times what they actually cost to build was not for purposes of siphoning out any money. (And if you believe this then you will believe that pigs can fly).

Everything was plain sailing -- pun intended -- until race day arrived. Then, on race day, the monsoon winds suddenly died down and the sailboats ended up dead in the water.

Full article from Malaysia-Today!
I'm sure you guys are a bit shocked, of even impressed by how 'intelligent' (read STUPID) these culprits are. This is reality I'm talking about. Facts that are TRUE! Well, so far, there are still true since Pak Lah haven't mention 'I don't know anything about it', which I hope will be the last words that comes to his mind.

Dato' Husam Musa did some nice comments in his blog, Cetusan-Hati-Blogspot. His post was titled, Wang Minyak Terengganu dihumban ke laut?. I really recommend all of to visit his blog and read this post. If possible, all the post there. He did take the same 'quote' that I took from Malaysia-Today.

I leave it to all of you to read, evaluate and take action; take action by sharing this infomation and spreading it so that all Malaysian can know the hidden truth. Its all up to you. Do it, or leave it!

Wassalam...

Malaysia Among Top Bribe Payers?

On Friday, while reading theSUN on the way to work, I came to a news mentioning about top bribe payers in the world, based on a survey done by Transparency International (TI). Its interesting to know that Malaysia was among the Top 10. Its more interesting to know that Malaysia is the only so called Islamic Country in the Top 10 list. Malaysia as the Chairman of OIC. This is a good ending term though. Nice!

I think it was around a month ago when Pak Lah urge all the OIC members to reduce the corruption in their country. Taking an example of Malaysia's BPR and saying bla bla bla (All those crapt things Pak Lah usually mention). Than, here comes TI proving that Malaysia is the worst among the OIC country. Wow!

BERLIN: Companies from emerging export powers in Asia, namely India and China, were ranked the worst in global anti-corruption organisation Transparency International's 2006 Bribe Payers Index (BPI).

The BPI looks at the propensity of companies from 30 leading export countries, including Malaysia, to bribe when doing business abroad.

The BPI revealed that although companies from the wealthiest countries generally ranked in the top half of the index, their scores show that they still routinely pay bribes, particularly in developing economies.

A score of 10 indicates a perception of no corruption, while zero means corruption is seen as rampant.

I think Pak Lah did a very good job in taking care of Malaysias' image as chairman of OIC. I'm impressed! Maybe its because Pak Lah was involve in the Iraq Oil Scandal, who knows. And he did mention that his action was normal action for people like him (politician). If thats normal, what is abnormal to them? I just can't believe what othe surprises are waiting for us. Do you?

Expect the unexpected my friend...

Is Formal Education That Important?

A few days ago, last week if I'm not mistaken, I've wrote one post about me reading a book by Robert T. Kiyosaki. Maybe some of you have downloaded the book and read it. One of the important message the book wants to deliver is telling us that FORMAL education isn't really important to get a successful, rich life. I repeat, FORMAL education. Which is learning in school, college or university. And Kiyosaki really have his strong point there.

Anyone ever heard about Steve Jobs? Well, this guy is among the founder of Apple Macintosh. He didn't even finish college. He took the 'road no taken' and now is a very successful man. Yesterday, while surfing the internet, I wound an interesting speech given by Steve Jobs. Thanks to Pakdi!



Hope you guys enjoy this speech. I find it too interesting to not share with my beloved readers. If your connection is a bit slow, just read his speech (since you can't watch it. Sorry for you...).
Thank you. I'm honored to be with you today for your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. Truth be told, I never graduated from college and this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation.

Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories. The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first six months but then stayed around as a drop-in for another eighteen months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out? It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife, except that when I popped out, they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking, "We've got an unexpected baby boy. Do you want him?" They said, "Of course." My biological mother found out later that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promisedThis was the start in my life. And seventeen years later, I did go to college, but I naïvely chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, and no idea of how college was going to help me figure it out, and here I was, spending all the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back, it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out, I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me and begin dropping in on the ones that looked far more interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms. I returned Coke bottles for the five-cent deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the seven miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example.

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer was beautifully hand-calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and sans-serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me, and we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts, and since Windows just copied the Mac, it's likely that no personal computer would have them.

If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on that calligraphy class and personals computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do.

Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college, but it was very, very clear looking backwards 10 years later. Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward. You can only connect them looking backwards, so you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something--your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever--because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even when it leads you off the well- worn path, and that will make all the difference.

My second story is about love and loss. I was lucky. I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents' garage when I was twenty. We worked hard and in ten years, Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4,000 employees. We'd just released our finest creation, the Macintosh, a year earlier, and I'd just turned thirty, and then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew, we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so, things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge, and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our board of directors sided with him, and so at thirty, I was out, and very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating. I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down, that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure and I even thought about running away from the Valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me. I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I'd been rejected but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods in my life. During the next five years I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the world's first computer-animated feature film, "Toy Story," and is now the most successful animation studio in the world.

In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT and I returned to Apple and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance, and Lorene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful-tasting medicine but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life's going to hit you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love, and that is as true for work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work, and the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking, and don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it, and like any great relationship it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking. Don't settle.

My third story is about death. When I was 17 I read a quote that went something like "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself, "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "no" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something. Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important thing I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life, because almost everything--all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure--these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago, I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctors' code for "prepare to die." It means to try and tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next ten years to tell them, in just a few months. It means to make sure that everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope, the doctor started crying, because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and, thankfully, I am fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope it's the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept. No one wants to die, even people who want to go to Heaven don't want to die to get there, and yet, death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because death is very likely the single best invention of life. It's life's change agent; it clears out the old to make way for the new. right now, the new is you. But someday, not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it's quite true. Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma, which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice, heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalogue, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late Sixties, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and Polaroid cameras. it was sort of like Google in paperback form thirty-five years before Google came along. I was idealistic, overflowing with neat tools and great notions. Stewart and his team put out several issues of the The Whole Earth Catalogue, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-Seventies and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath were the words, "Stay hungry, stay foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. "Stay hungry, stay foolish." And I have always wished that for myself, and now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you. Stay hungry, stay foolish.

Thank you all, very much.

What do you think? Kind of cool right? I've been thinking a lot about these things called 'financial freedom' and going for what you have passion in. My passion is in computers, writing, business & investment, reading and teaching. Man, am I too confuse to choose?

Wallahualam...